to Mark & Ryan
One rainy night, I woke up with the perfect idea.
Surfers know the secret to life. It's just that
they're so content; they don't have any interest in
telling the rest of us. Yeah, why not? Hundreds and
thousands of years searching for the meaning to life
... it figures that somebody ought to have found the
answer. Surfers. Oh the irony, apparently, finding
out's the important part, actually telling the story
isn't. Like a really good kiss, there's no amount of
talking that can relate it. No point. Only thing
remaining is the desire to do it again! But why
surfers? I should tell you that I was born hundreds
of miles from the ocean -- plop in the middle of the
states. It's funny that native Californians think the
Midwest is on the East Coast. Well, I suppose all of
the US is east of them. Anyway, I had never seen
anybody surf except on the "Hawaii Five O" intro.
They were incredible, but I still didn't think they
held the key to a full mature truly activated life.
In fact, later when I moved to So. Cal and met some
surfers personally, they still seemed more
atmosphere-headed than philosophically enriched. And
therein lies the mask. Up at dawn, voluntarily
subjecting themselves to frigid or down right
freezing water temps; then remaining glossy-eyed for
the rest of the day. Probably even dreaming of the
waves .... always one or two steps behind in a
conversation. The smile, the head nod, the inevitable
phrase, "yeah, yeah, wait, what are you dudes talking
about again?" What a perfect place to hide ultimate
intelligence. In the brain of a surfer. Happy,
seemingly, but existentially fulfilled? Who would
have thought? The perfect hiding place for the Holy
Grail of nirvana. Millions flock to churches,
synagogues, temples, cults, drugs, sex, money -- but
the answer all along -- religiously hidden in the
head of a surfer. Dedicated it seems, only to the
ocean's waves and waxing their boards, how is it that
these rather undisciplined beach bums could find the
discipline to remain so tightlipped about perhaps the
greatest piece of knowledge of all time? The answer
-- it's easy, they're so darned blissful that they
don't even know there's a secret to hide. Or, perhaps
the answer is only with them when they're riding --
balanced upon the waves. Like electricity through
copper wire. Disconnected from the source of power,
the copper has no memory of the current. But, atop
the perfect wave, the surfer connects the circuit,
perfectly balanced with nature, with God, with
creation, the wind, the sea, even the fish. Solid
state technology. Feet to board, board to waves, a
flawless connection. A strong current, uncountable
volts, ungaugeable amperage. Bliss, peace, nirvana,
rushes through the surfer like a melody through the
holes of a flute, along the frets of a guitar, upon
the vocal chords in the larynx. But is gone when the
vibrations stop. On the shore, the surfer is left
with no verbal or written way to explain the
happening, the event. He or she struggles hopelessly
inventing words like, gnarly, tubular. For all
practical purposes, the experience has dissipated,
evaporated like puddles leaving the ground with no
way to relate the experience -- only that they desire
it again. That's the glossy-eyed look, every waking
(and sleeping) dry-ground moment, the surfer desires
the experience again. They've obtained nirvana, but
it isn't a stable state. In fact it is the exact
nature of nirvana to be unstable. Nirvana is the
nonexistent border between two other stable modes. It
doesn't exist while you're standing in either of the
modes, you have to have one foot in each. Nirvana
isn't flying, it isn't the clouds, it isn't the
plane, it's the turbulence. It's the yellow circle of
the traffic light. Only, you have to remove it from
the signal. Then let speeding traffic decide when the
green will turn to red -- that's nirvana. It's not
stable by nature. Achieving nirvana MEANS a skilled
flirt with disaster. Surfers know that. Surfers know
true enlightenment. Can't you see it in their
obliviousness? Everything we have to offer them is
trivial to what they've done, achieved. Everything in
this world is tedium to be endured while their bodies
rest up to do it again. Think of it. Fine tuning your
body, wrestling the waves, swimming up stream like
salmon, as salmon have some instinctual drive,
knowledge that wholeness resides upstream. Not on the
beach, not on the towel with lotion and a margarita,
but swimming against the very beast it aims to
harness. Then through trial and error, finding an apt
waiting area. Calming anticipation, trusting the
senses, the wind, the size of the approaching wave,
then with a little boost from human body, energy to
prime the board, wait. wait, feel the swell of the
ocean below, its life, its blood pumping one
wave-beat at a time. And a beat is the only moment to
catch it. It's not a state of its own, it's the exact
nonexistent line formed by the borders of two states.
Mathematicians know it as the limit of the function.
The slope approaches a specific number that can be
represented by a fraction -- but that number is never
actually obtained -- the slope simply approaches it
for infinity. Surfers find that number that functions
only approach, that functions think is infinity. They
feel that number! They pull their bodies up onto
platforms that have no support, only a crack in water
direction. They stand erect on the ocean. They rest
their boards firmly (or not so firmly) on that
illusive meeting of two planes; its the energy of
that volatile instability that balances a human on
the ocean. Tectonic plates are like that. Where else
can you get an otherwise dormant Earth to spew
spectacular amounts of fire and lava except at the
rendezvous of meandering tectonic pates? Where else
does an otherwise stagnant ground rumble, shout,
break glass and building, create impossibly
inspirational gorges miles long except at the
nonexistent line that marks the intersection of
continental plates? That's exactly it. That's exactly
the place of energy of fullness of life. If indeed we
are meant to live an eruptively exciting life, then
we need to get off our stable states. We've got to
seek out instability, turbulence. We've got to troll
out to a place in our lives where the winds are quiet
enough, where there aren't any distractions to cloud
our view, where we can hear, feel, even smell the
energy of an incoming unstable stage and ride that
wave with all we've got ... knowing it's fleeting,
knowing it's a cycle, perhaps believing as all
surfers do, "One day ma, I'm gonna ride her all the
way to the arctic circle." Surfers may have never
been accused of working miracles; still, anyone can
see, they walk on water.
Ross Anthony
You might also enjoy "Zen Repair and the Art of Riding Chili" (click that link, then the book cover).
Your comments are welcome. Here are a two quotes from a couple of readers who've written in:
"I agree with you 100%. The ten years I spent surfing were the best years of my life. After that, the more complicated life got for me, the more I lost that sort of surfer-zen state of mind. I have often thought that we had naturally developed a Zen-Mind as surfers even though we didn't know it at the time. But my friends and I definitely had it, no doubt about it. Now I read books on Buddhism and I've been working at regaining that Zen mind ever since."
"I have read your article "The Zen of Surfing". I can maybe add this, from
my experience of last two Sundays: When you stand on the board and ride
the wave, feeling the wave, its pulsation under your feet, you also start
feeling that Ocean is Alive, you are connected to this life through your
hara. This is probably because to keep the balance, you naturally start
focusing on hara, and so it leads to this experience. Also, to me it
seems that the waveriding is an ultimate let-go state -- no thinking, no
worrying, -- just being relaxed while riding and feeling the ocean.
Essentially, waveriding is about feeling -- you need to feel how the water
moves, feel when the right moment comes... Otherwise you miss it." Gleb
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